Monica Ingudam

Broken

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Broken
An article by Monica Ingudam

Everyone goes through a phase leaving you completely broken. The reason why you reached that state may be different but the feeling of being broken is the same. You try to be strong on the outside picking yourself up trying to fix yourself going through a multitude of feelings. You go through loosing your self respect, a terrible heartache and a sense of feeling worthless leaving you empty.

At times when you are alone, you can’t control such strong emotions and even try resorting to hurting yourself. And when you come to that state you have to divert your mind to things you love doing. There has to be something you love doing. You have to promise yourself never to come to that state. It’s all in your mind. Let your mind take control over what you feel, over your heart. If you hurt yourself and die, you will be just another news in a small section, people will say “Oh so sad” “Nungaiteda” probably some sharing/comments in Facebook and other social media places. But you will soon be forgotten and people will move on with their life.

Nothing or nobody is worth hurting yourself. Learn to love and care for yourself. Be a survivor and not a victim, make your own story and start living. Look into the mirror and say “I am a survivor” “I am not a victim” “I will not be a victim” and see the strength in you, the strength no one can take away. It is yours and only yours. Get the strength, fix yourself and continue blooming beautifully.

~The End~

Dedicated to everyone where the thought of harming yourself ever crossed your mind. Nothing or nobody is worth hurting yourself. Learn to love and care for yourself. Be a survivor and not a victim, make your own story and start living.

Rejections

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Rejections
An article by Monica Ingudam

Everyone goes through rejections at some point of their life. It may rejections in love, in friendship, in work or any form of human relationships. Whatever form it may be, you will be hurt, really hurt making your heart ache so bad that you will cry. And it’s ok to cry. You are only human to cry. And nothing or no one can help you ease your heart ache. It’s only you, your solitude and time that can heal you.

Sometimes you come out emerging strong but loosing your belief in love, life, friendship or relationship. Sometimes you come out weak loosing your belief in yourself and remain broken. And sometimes you are stuck and in the moment of weakness you will loose yourself. Now the question is how to come out strong and drive towards the bright light from the dark tunnel, believing in yourself, transitioning from being a victim to a survivor to living your life.

No matter what advice you get from people or what you have read, it’s you and only you who have to step out of the darkness. Take the time you need but be sure to come out of the darkness you have been in. Open your eyes, look in all directions, directions which pulls you in, which makes you happy, which makes you smile and you will be surprised. Surprised in finding beautiful things in life which you have never seen before and will question yourself on how blinded you were not to notice it earlier. And you will start to see that there is no reason to waste your time in wallowing yourself with people or things who takes you to the dark tunnel, time and again. It is your choice, and only you can choose to move to beautiful things in life and find yourself. But find yourself, for you are special, precious and you deserve it.

Once you have found your place, place filled with your beautiful things bringing out your best smile, you will realize that you actually missed the light. And you can see events from a different perspective and move on with your life, with a stronger you.

It’s easy to fall back even after you found your place. But you should never give up. Once you know you are falling towards the dark tunnel, be quick to turn yourself to your space, your space of beautiful things. The space is different and unique for each of you. For some it may be reading, for some it may be music or writing or photography or gardening or walking or running or movies. There are tons of options, just open your eyes and you will know what pulls you in. Bringing you to a place where you, only you can control your state of mind and no one will ever drive you back in the dark tunnel. You are a survivor and you will find your way to living a beautiful life.

~The End~

Dedicated to everyone scratched by Rejections.

 

Episode 061 FindingTheVoices Robert Naorem, Fashion Designer, stylist, Makeup artist sharing about his career (Part 3)

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Episode 061 FindingTheVoices : Robert Naorem, Fashion Designer, stylist, Makeup artist sharing about his career choice

Proud to present 3rd part of Robert Naorem’s podcast where we talk in details about his journey as a Fashion Designer and details about his career. Listen to the podcast to hear the details of his career choice detailing about being a make-up artist and aspiration to being a designer, an established designer. He currently employs 15 people, all from Manipur giving them training, grooming them and offering a different life and live with dignity and respect. His belief echos with my belief on Education. He shares about his own experience and struggle with his own parents on his choice of career path. Mostly parent’s don’t consider a career path based on the child’s interest. It’s time for parents to change their mindset and widen their support on career choice other than the traditional acceptable career. Any parents listening to our show ?

You can catch up the 1st part of his podcast where he shared about his conflicting childhood and 2nd part of his podcast where he shared about his first show, Manipur Fashion Extravaganza 2013.

Picture Courtesy : Tiken Thockchom (Tiken Photography) Pictures of the 2nd show of Robert Naorem ‘s Manipur Fashion Extravaganza 2014

Video Courtesy: Youtube ANImultimedia

027 It’s all in the mind : The lady with shaved head

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The lady with shaved head

She looks young and beautiful,
Even with her head shaved off,
She has clear eyes filled with pain,
She spoke to no one.

She would come every evening around the same time to this temple,
Climbs all the steps barefoot,
Sitting in the same spot,
Staring at nothing.

She never entered the temple nor was seen praying,
And when she leaves she seem calm,
The kind of calmness you would be scared of,
Making you come back the next evening to check on her.

~The End~

An Experimental attempt to put thoughts in writing by Monica Ingudam.

026 It’s all in the mind : The closed Door

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The closed Door

The door is closed,
And the walls are high,
Without any glimpse of what lies beyond the door,
It’s been years behind the door,
And you have known only a life within the walls,
Which you have accepted,
And even started to enjoy the comfort and safety it provides,
You have read about beautiful things,
Things you have never seen,
The door is closed but not locked,
You could step out to explore the world,
And it’s your choice.

~The End~

An Experimental attempt to put thoughts in writing by Monica Ingudam.

Yellow Flowers

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Beautiful yellow flowers. Yellow is full of creative and intellectual energy. Do you like yellow flowers ? Collection of Yellow flowers contributed by the family of FindingTheVoices

025 It’s all in the mind : The Drive just after the snow!

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The Drive just after the snow!

It’s a cold snowy day,
Your hands and face frozen after cleaning the snow off your car,
Roads are slippery and icy,
The visibility is low with ice on your windshield.

You see accidents of cars on the way,
You see frozen river giving you the chill thinking how cold it must be,
With all the dangers associated,
There is a certain charm driving just after the snow.

Driving on an abandoned road,
Once filled with traffic,
Making you feel you own it,
Driving at your own speed with your favorite songs played.

As you enjoy the beautiful sight,
All the dirt covered with pure white snow,
The barren tree, now covered with snow making it glow,
Snowflakes falling as the wind blows.

Even the sun won’t miss this sight,
But this beauty is short lived,
As It melts quickly,
Bringing you back to reality with slippery icy road.

Cars stained by the dirt,
Biting you with the bitter cold as you walk by,
When people ask you why bother to drive in such a bad weather,
You smile thinking you wouldn’t miss the beautiful sight and will drive yet again.

~The End~

Picture of George Washington memorial Parkway today.

An Experimental attempt to put thoughts in writing by Monica Ingudam.

Episode 059 FindingTheVoices : Romi Meitei Director of Manipuri Movies, sharing his experiences of Manipur Movie Industry (Part2)

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Presenting the second part of the podcast (in Meitei-lon) of Romi Meitei, Director of Manipuri Movies, sharing his experience working in Manipur Movie Industry for the last 10 years. He is one of the eminent Manipuri movie director having more than 10 years of experience working in Manipur movie industry as a Director, script writing and even writing lyrics of songs (including one of my favorite Inga Nonglakta). He shares interesting aspect of the work culture and talent of artists which raises the question, Are the actors and actresses in Manipur reading the script ? Is Manipur keeping up with the technology change with the basic infrastructure and challenges in making a movie ? We also spoke about piracy and how that impacts the Manipur movie Industry.

Episode 059 FindingTheVoices Romi Meitei Director of Manipuri Movies sharing his experiences working in Manipur Movie Industry (Part2)

Catch up with Part 1 of the podcast where Romi Meitei shared his experience and vision of Manipuri movie industry. Listen to his podcast to hear his thoughts on “Have the movies in Manipur Industry changed in the last 10 years ? How is the infrastructure ? Are we equipped with a studio ? Are there any government policy or incentives for promoting the movie industry ? We spoke about the immense talents but lack of sponsors for quality movie production. The movies right now are more market driven to get back the investment.

Watch his short movies Noong Amadi Yeroom (Rock And Egg) and Kaangkhada Lin (Snake under the Bed)