089 It’s all in the mind : Dating in Manipur

Dating in Manipur 

I see a young couple
With white painted bald heads
Balded by the mob
The young couple
Lowered their eyes
Walking in shame
Like war criminals
Followed by a mob
Loud clinking sounds of the lamp post
Calling for more people
People who knows the law in such matters
Taking the law in their own hands
Passing judgement
Putting the stamp of immorality
The media excels in such coverage and research
Printing all the names of the young couple’s family tree
That was the picture imprinted in my mind
When I thought of dating
While growing up in Manipur.

My mother made sure I read all the news
Lectured me hours
Every time such news was covered
Which was often
But I never understood what defined “The compromising position” the couple was found,
The compromising position the media referred,
Was it looking intently in each others eyes?
Was it smiling and laughing?
Was it holding hands?
Was it hugging?
Was it kissing?
Was it more?
Was there a guideline defined?
There were lots of questions
Questions which I never got answers
And I remained behind
The thick iron gate
The gate which my father had two big locks
The gate which I dare not step out
And I always saw
The white painted bald heads
With lowered eyes
Walking in shame
Like war criminals
Followed by a mob
When I thought of dating in Manipur.

* Maru kokthoklaga, shunu yaingung teiraga, khonggoinaraga keina katpa (Meitei-Lon words from my Mother’s lecture)

~The End~

An Experimental attempt to put thoughts in writing by Monica Ingudam.

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088 It’s all in the mind : The Garden

The Garden 

You find yourself in a place,
Where feelings doesn’t count anymore,
Tears doesn’t mean anything,
You fall and fall again,
To be left,
Abandoned and deserted,
Where no empathy is found,
And you see yourself sinking quickly.
But you hold on to the Garden,
Hold on tightly,
To the garden filled with sweet peas flowers,
Filled with fragrance from the jasmine blooms,
The yellow orchids adding to the colors,
Bringing you close to the ginger lily plant,
The scent you seek for,
The garden, your garden,
Which never fails to lift you up,
Making you walk tall and high, yet again.Everyone has the garden,
You just have to figure out,
And find your garden, the garden,
Which you can hold on,
When you know you are starting to sink.

~The End~

An Experimental attempt to put thoughts in writing by Monica Ingudam.

087 It’s all in the mind : The Rickshaw Ride at Tiddim Road

The Rickshaw Ride at Tiddim Road 

It was a sunny calm afternoon,
With no bandhs and no bombs,
I walked stirring the dust on the road,
Watched the dust fall on my blue flat pump shoes,
The road starting from Kwakeithel,
A new found freedom filled me,
Walking alone on this road,
The road I once feared to walk,
The fear instilled with unpredictable bomb blast,
The fear instilled with frequent kidnappings,
With a freedom bounded by my protective parents.

I waved to a Rickshaw across the road,
I ask him if he could take me to moreh dukan near Keishampat,
He said yes,
I hesitated as I got a whiff of alcohol from his breath,
Then I climbed up the rickshaw,
Feeling safe looking at the wide open Tiddim Road,
Telling myself “What could he do?”
Having the confidence to punch if required.

I watched the half broken buildings on the way,
As all the landmarks I knew disappeared,
The familiar shop and signboard were all gone,
A result in the attempt to widen the Tiddim Road,
A thick compensation offered which bought people’s silence,
The man pedals steadily,
I inhaled the dust getting the taste of the lovely cold wind blowing across my face.

And soon I was greeted with the familiar sight I seeked for,
Bringing out my smile,
I asked the man how much was the fare,
He said whatever was the going rate,
I didn’t know what was the going rate,
I asked him if he had change and gave him a crisp 100 Rs note,
He slipped an old 50 Rs back to me,
Thanking him I walked towards my destination,
Feeling accomplished,
It was my lone Rickshaw ride,
The Rickshaw ride at Tiddim Road.

~The End~

An Experimental attempt to put thoughts in writing by Monica Ingudam.

Authors Note: It’s a small event but a huge leap for me giving me the rush of freedom riding a rickshaw in the conflicted place of Manipur, India.

086 It’s all in the mind : The poison drink

The Poison Drink 

They say it’s bad,
They say it’s sinful,
I agree it’s bitter,
I agree it burns,
And yet you can’t resist,
You return once again,
To quench your thirst for the buzz,
The buzz that takes you to your world,
You know it can kill you,
And you nod in agreement,
Asking how do you unfeel a buzz ?

~The End~

An Experimental attempt to put thoughts in writing by Monica Ingudam.

085 It’s all in the mind : The Greys

The Greys 

Breaking promises knowingly,
Loosing the art of making up purposely,
Giving up on trying,
And spitting out borrowed words.

Mastering the art of icing,
Being the envy of many,
Creating the perfect piece,
And covering all the imperfections.

The Greys are here,
Time is short,
Will there be enough time to heal ?
And soon all will be ashes.

~The End~

An Experimental attempt to put thoughts in writing by Monica Ingudam.

084 It’s all in the mind : Faceless

Faceless

I was scared,
I seeked your protection,
Only to be left damaged and faceless.

~The End~

An Experimental attempt to put thoughts in writing by Monica Ingudam.

083 It’s all in the mind : Langmeidong

Langmeidong

Oh flock of Langmeidong birds,
You had spared many of your feathers for Langlen,
You had taken her as one of you,
Giving her the wings,
Teaching her to fly,
Rescuing her from the wrath of her step-mother,
Rescuing her from rejections,
Rescuing her from hearing the terrible heart piercing words,
All she wanted was love,
All she wanted was acceptance,
Do you have more feathers to spare ?

~The End~

Inspired from the #Manipuri folk tale uchek Langmeidong, An Experimental attempt to put thoughts in writing by Monica Ingudam.

082 It’s all in the mind : Tears

Tears

Tears welling up
Tears filling up
Let it flow
Empty it out
You cry alone
You laugh together
Haven’t you learnt the ways of the humans?
Red is red
Red will remain red.
It’s not different
You are not different
You are just a human.

~The End~

An Experimental attempt to put thoughts in writing by Monica Ingudam.

081 It’s all in the mind : A Woman

A WomanA red scarf with red high heels,
A cold day with piping hot tea,
A traveler with no destination,
A woman, a free spirit.

~The End~

An Experimental attempt to put thoughts in writing by Monica Ingudam.